I am neither frantic nor disordered nor anxious, words which certainly characterized me for years and years.
I tried to do everything I was supposed to do, including being excellent in a field I had not chosen.
Now that I am doing the things I have always wanted to do, even though there are so many of them, and I am doing them all simultaneously, there is order and happiness in my life.
You cannot discipline the gap between what you feel you have to do and what you feel your calling is.
Discipline and obedience to something outside your own soul is useless.
Eventually, you will have to return to yourself, even if it is for the first time, in order to be relaxed.
I am grateful I was driven to find my own way.
I am grateful I was so uncomfortable and sick that i had to leave all my old practices behind.
I am grateful that there were no alternatives to jumping off the edge into what I have always longed to do, even though it looked like there was no way and it was extremely impractical.
It is extremely impractical to pull yourself apart away from your dream. There are health consequences, personality issues, and a general feeling of disquiet and constant anxiety.
Being yourself is the best thing that can happen to you and it is worth fighting for.
© 2015 Kathryn Hardage
www.InspiredPractices.com
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